Today was the Shabbos kallah and We are getting married in under a week. I am so super calm and peaceful. I'm so happy and so hopeful. Suddenly, today, everything slowed down, its all been moving so fast, but today it all slowed down and I saw it all for what it really is...beautiful and good. And I cant wait to stand under that chuppah and finally become whole. This Shabbos was Shabbos Beraishit and HAshem starts out with this awesome light and than hid it. But why? Why create light first if there is nobody around who can benefit from it? .. Rashi says its in preperation for man. BUt then why not create animals and plants first, they could have benefited from in meanwhile. The answer is as follows... The Rebbe answers like this... HAshem Started out with a goal, His goal was light. And so with any project, you start out deciding what your going to build. HAshem hid this light for us to uncover. Each day of creation He kept this light in mind and everything in creation was created for this goal. To uncover this G-dly light in a seemingly dark world. So to, we, each day need to have a goal. To wake up and know that it is our responsability to light up this world with Torah and Mitzvos. And not just to realize this but to take action. Somehting not connected .....Ok well a teacher in BAis Rivkah taught me something (shocking I know ) it stuck with me, mabey cuz it freaked me out, but here it is... What if the world is waiting on YOU. It could be any mitzvah that tips the scale for Moshiach to come... But what if HAshem is waiting for YOURS. What if its all resting on me saying Kria Shema and I decide Im too tired...Man its a lot of pressure, but it also shows that we truly are resonsable for one another, I may not care enough for myself but when you know that the entire Jewish people are waiting for MOshiach and It may very well rest on you saying Chitas or not...Well your gonna say it. IMagine HAshem is thinking "Yup I'm almost ready, Leah just needs to say an after brocha on that cracker"
Yeah another 3a.m. rant from me....